steadyEDDY
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Nov 5, 2009 19:02:19 GMT -5
Post by steadyEDDY on Nov 5, 2009 19:02:19 GMT -5
Wow, it's been awhile, hasn't it?
Most of you, if not all, should know who I am. Those that do, should know that I've been prone to random hiatuses and disappearances. This latest one has been by far, one of the worst, and I apologize for it.
Believe me, though, when I say it was out of my control.
Okay, maybe it wasn't.
I was stupid, that's the gist of it.
For weeks on end, my blood sugar was starting to get out of control. Most of you know of my diabetes, and I'm sure you've all heard me say I wasn't going to let it ruin my life.
It didn't.
I ruined my life.
It all started one fateful evening, on a Saturday, if I can remember it properly. I was eating a bagel, yes, strawberry cream cheese with a nice glass of milk on the side.
Now, this had about fifty somewhat carbohydrates in it, so I gave myself five units, one per ten carbs. Still with me here? Good.
It takes two hours for insulin to peek, but even after four hours, the insulin had no effect. I was in the two hundreds, rather than a solid eighty-one twenty.
I shrugged it off, thinking it to be bad math or bad insulin. One day of high blood sugar meant nothing to me.
It continued.
Weeks passed.
Ketones were made.
Still, I kept switching out insulin.
I even changed my insulin dosage, to no avail.
Finally, it grew out of control.
I thought I was invincible. I thought I knew my body better than anyone else, and I could beat diabetes.
I took a shot that was completely outrageous. Nearly twice my new changed amount of dosages.
Within an hour, I was slipping into a coma. One more hour until the insulin peeked.
One more hour until I died.
By grace of God, or my deep love for those around me, one of the two, a stranger found me while I was collapsing into a diabetic shock in the streets of my hometown. I never knew the man, but he knew the way to the hospital, and quickly took me there. I would have offered him my thanks, but at this point, I was choking on my own spit.
I was hospitalized for several days, to fix the situation with my ketones.
It was dragged on for so long, that my blood already began to thicken and turn into an acidic substance, and it started to eat away at what little fat I had, and my muscles and major organs.
In a few more days, I could have gone blind, or lost a leg.
Both would have effected my parkour abilities greatly.
Still though, I survived, and learned from this.
I learned that I don't know everything about diabetes.
I learned that at any moment, due to any stupid mistake, big or small, I could die.
I learned that had I died, there would have been so many people I never got the chance to say goodbye to.
And so, that's why I write this.
Rasenden, you've been a good family to me, and, I hope you still will be, for I plan on staying for a good while longer.
Whether it be on AIM to chat, or in the ninja world to have a good RP.
Either way, I'll be here to show you all what love really means, and that there will always be someone who cares for you.
love,
steadyEDDY
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Yosuke
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Nov 5, 2009 19:08:58 GMT -5
Post by Yosuke on Nov 5, 2009 19:08:58 GMT -5
... Eddy! OMFG Don't scare me like that again, please. Please do stick to the advice or your physician and stuff. I don't want to have to hear (I don't know how I would), that you passed away. I would seriously be saddened. But thanks rest with God that you are still here with us. I love you, man!
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steadyEDDY
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May 11, 2010 20:48:50 GMT -5
Post by steadyEDDY on May 11, 2010 20:48:50 GMT -5
Hm. Looking back is... a bitch.
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